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Was this the authority figure hiding the ugly truth? or was this a way to say that what only matters in life is the legacy you leave in the world? Either way, I love Diego and Frida and I'm glad I know more about the subject, they seem human now, not this perfect power couple in the world of Mexican painting that everyone sees on the outside.
Sorry for the annoying handwriting, by the way
I was going through my abandoned FF Inbox and I was amazed at how much more confident I was!!
I found messages from 2012 with me acting as a virtual social butterfly, all smiles and politeness and talking about myself to strangers, thanking them for a review or discussing a chapter and even asking for translation permissions.
I couldn't believe that used to be me. I'm always saying "I've always been shy and I was born like that so I cannot change it" and I thought I was getting better but apparently not.
Nowadays I'm terrified of "speaking up" online in other people's bussiness. Even the friendliest of posts inviting people to just comment make me nervous. I know people in LJ that I'd really like to talk with because I find them interesting or they seem to be great and I don't do anything. I've read people hating their loneliness or asking for anyone to be there for them and I want to do something but my hands freeze up at the thought and I hate it.
If my real life social skills have not improved and my virtual social skills have worsened, what can be the reason? I thought so many years meeting people through the internet would have increased my online confidence xD it doesnt make any sense
I'm back... To complain about stuff and ask questions. Yeah, hi!
So first of all, today I was walking to my house and I felt a weird uncomfortable ache in my back, I twisted a little and I swear some bone cracked and it was scary as hell, luckily there was no pain or further discomfort after that so... i guess it's okay
Second complaint! Is it bad to like school?
Last week I had to do the "teamwork" worthy of 3 classmates because the website needed to collaborate "suddenly" didn't work on their computers. One side of me was planning on not giving a fuck ans receivinf a failing grade just to show the teacher how damn lazy and easily-defeated they were... But the bigger side of me was terrified of getting a bad grade so I did a pretty awesome but totally unfair work for my team. Later on I received extra points for this, but a really close friend started saying if I couldn't stop doing everyone else's work it was because I liked letting people use me and I felt awful after that.
Like... I'm smart, I know I am and I consider myself pretty lucky because that's the only reason I'm not failing every class at the moment (because I'm lazy and terrified of socializing so I only depend on that lol) so when I find myself working more than my part, I find it unfair, but besides the extra time I don't really "suffer". Anyways, I felt awful and at the same time resigned because I know my classmates won't change... Ever. So I'll still be "used" from time to time and that sucks.
Aaaand I'm the one thar jumps up at the chance of explaining things or doing classwork During the class, and everyone looks at me like I should be doing something else but... Whatever
And finally!!! A question that my English teacher and I argued about yesterday. For a written test I had to write a story.
In said story I wrote "The raindrops felt heavy on my face".
The teacher marked that as a mistake, saying: "The correct way to write it would be 'The raindrops felt heavily on my face' because if you're adding a word after a verb it Must be an adverb"
To which I thought 'Hell no', because "felt heavily" sounds wrong (yeah, I have no real evidence supporting me yet). It kind of sounds like the raindrops were feeling something?
So both the teacher and I ended confused and now I'm asking here because.... Most people here speak English as their first language so you must be reliable sources to solve the dilemma xD
Was it "felt heavy" or "felt heavily"?
Let me know!
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