Tuesday, February 25th, 2014 04:33 am
Still Don't Know Why
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panicnhysteriaTitle: Still Don't Know Why
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panicnhysteria
Pairing: Belldom
Rating: PG
Warnings: None
Summary: Love got no reason, I simply stopped wondering why. Written for the![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
stellarclouds February challenge, "I love you".
Disclaimer: I don't own Muse. If I did,oh, if I did... I wouldn't be here(:
Note: This is the first Belldom "fic" I write here, even if it's too short. I had other plans but this appeared out of nowhere and I had to write it(: Hope you like it.
I love him.
There's the only thing in my life that will never change.
I loved him since the first time I met him. Awkward, nervous but still so joyful. I could see when I shook his hand that he was trying to run away, But he didn't. Because something -maybe his own conscience- told him he had to do this. He had to confront life, even when all he wanted to do was keep living like he didn't have to grow up.
That love grew when I saw him smile. After weeks of constant companionship and half-hidden smirks, I finally got the chance to see him smile. Now I can't remember what made him smile, but it doesn't matter. I saw light on his eyes and I fell head over heels for them.
It's curious how we never felt the need to clear things between us. Somehow we passed from spending time with a friend to see each other just because. And somehow, we made it work for a while, sensing the heavy feelings in the air everytime we were together.
I thought I was sentenced to be rejected when he stopped coming around. I knew he still had trouble adapting to the hard time that adult life could give, and I feared my obvious fixation with him was only making it worse. So I spent weeks alone -because, to be honest, he was the only true friend I had- but that didn't stop me from loving him. No, that was impossible.
I knew I was ruined for any other person when he came back. He was smiling, brightening his face and marking that as the best day of my life. Those three words slipped out before I had the time to consider. He just widended his smile and put his arms around me, hugging me like his life depended on it, stealing the rest of my heart with it,
Time after that, we moved on. Together. We made a lot of mistakes and a few happy moments.
Like forgetting something important -his birthday- and fight over it.
Like feeling jeaolusy for the first time without knowing how to control it.
Like feeling his thin body against mine for the first time, weird and silent moments but also a deep burning in my chest, making me think life couldn't get better than that.
Every step on the way after that was taken without planning it. Sometimes I wondered out loud how could we be this happy. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Then him and his crooked smile made me realize that love got no reason, and I simply stopped wondering why. I happily dealed with it,
Even now, so much time after the day we met, we keep changing. And I keep discovering him, knowing him even more than I know myself. Still loving him. Always loving him.
Author:
panicnhysteriaPairing: Belldom
Rating: PG
Warnings: None
Summary: Love got no reason, I simply stopped wondering why. Written for the
stellarclouds February challenge, "I love you".Disclaimer: I don't own Muse. If I did,
Note: This is the first Belldom "fic" I write here, even if it's too short. I had other plans but this appeared out of nowhere and I had to write it(: Hope you like it.
I love him.
There's the only thing in my life that will never change.
I loved him since the first time I met him. Awkward, nervous but still so joyful. I could see when I shook his hand that he was trying to run away, But he didn't. Because something -maybe his own conscience- told him he had to do this. He had to confront life, even when all he wanted to do was keep living like he didn't have to grow up.
That love grew when I saw him smile. After weeks of constant companionship and half-hidden smirks, I finally got the chance to see him smile. Now I can't remember what made him smile, but it doesn't matter. I saw light on his eyes and I fell head over heels for them.
It's curious how we never felt the need to clear things between us. Somehow we passed from spending time with a friend to see each other just because. And somehow, we made it work for a while, sensing the heavy feelings in the air everytime we were together.
I thought I was sentenced to be rejected when he stopped coming around. I knew he still had trouble adapting to the hard time that adult life could give, and I feared my obvious fixation with him was only making it worse. So I spent weeks alone -because, to be honest, he was the only true friend I had- but that didn't stop me from loving him. No, that was impossible.
I knew I was ruined for any other person when he came back. He was smiling, brightening his face and marking that as the best day of my life. Those three words slipped out before I had the time to consider. He just widended his smile and put his arms around me, hugging me like his life depended on it, stealing the rest of my heart with it,
Time after that, we moved on. Together. We made a lot of mistakes and a few happy moments.
Like forgetting something important -his birthday- and fight over it.
Like feeling jeaolusy for the first time without knowing how to control it.
Like feeling his thin body against mine for the first time, weird and silent moments but also a deep burning in my chest, making me think life couldn't get better than that.
Every step on the way after that was taken without planning it. Sometimes I wondered out loud how could we be this happy. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Then him and his crooked smile made me realize that love got no reason, and I simply stopped wondering why. I happily dealed with it,
Even now, so much time after the day we met, we keep changing. And I keep discovering him, knowing him even more than I know myself. Still loving him. Always loving him.
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I cant wait for more from you;)
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and thanks for the comment!(:
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And thank you for the comment! It means a lot to me:)
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