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So, my scholarship is most probably lost, but it's still not something sure (I guess I was stressed enough that my mum has started saying "you know what? If you don't keep it, it's okay, let them do whatever they want, don't worry about it" and I've felt SO MUCH BETTER ever since. I feel like a bad person, because despite my efforts it feels like I'm giving away a great opportunity, but at the same time I feel relieved because, no matter how much I would get, to me nothing is worth being constantly stressed and worried about. At least in this case my mental well-being comes first.

Also, I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before but I've been playing percussions in a marching band (quite a challenge since there are basically NO marching bands in my city, we're like "the trend" right now?) and so far we've "performed" like ten times, of which two of them have been real parades (4 kilometers each time). And we were completely mediocre at it since we have never marched in our lives, but people liked us and we were never out of tune (out of breath, in pain but still working haha). I've made friends there which is quite cool, I don't use to do it but we all love music so we always have something to discuss, thankfully.

I finished my semester with an amazing 98 out of 100 (I guess it's equal to an A- or something? I don't really know) so I'm quite proud of myself, even if the struggle was too much sometimes. I came out to a total of 5 classmates and fortunately they were all supportive. I've been lucky enough so far that everyone who knows about my sexuality is completely okay with it. I hope it remains like that. The year is ending and I really don't have anything to complain about right now.
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Yes, I'm back. Someday I'll be back posting a story instead of my thoughts, but this will have to do for now.

Here, here )
Sunday, August 30th, 2015 03:26 am

That Girl...

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The subject I can't leave out!

Why? )
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I don't know who will read this or who will care about it, but it feels good to let out all the stuff that is going on inside my mind. So... I don't care. But I love telling things and I love people commenting on it (attention seeker much?) so, comment if you even read this.

A few hours ago I posted a picture on instagram about the things I don't have. One of those things is a partner... as in, a romantic partner. I've accepted I like both boys and girls now. I don't have a problem with it. But it seems like there's absolutely nothing normal about my love interests. But before I get to the present, I'd like to talk about my past.
Find out here... )
Friday, December 19th, 2014 02:38 am


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